You see when I get to thinking I control things, God puts a big "who do you think you are?" halt to it. But ever so gently. He has always been good like that. Although at times I may not think so, and well the whole issue of Ryan's cancer was a comletely different story, God has shown me what is right and that He is the one who is actually in control. When I realize that He controls things and I let God put me in my place, the pieces fall together. They totally make sense. I am humbled by Him right now.