Life of a Pregnant Mommy.

I am 7 weeks and 6 days along. My baby is a Blueberry in size!!!

Wow. The nausea is much worse this time around, than it was with Luke. I will say that I haven't actually had an emesis all over the place, but the constant queasiness is catching up with me. If I am doing something, and not staring at the t.v. with a possible food shot popping up I do rather well. At work, meal times are not good. Otherwise, I am okay. The clean up on some people have thrown a curve ball at me, but not terrible--yet. It seems to get worse every day though. Every morning I sit just trying to get myself to calm down so I don't throw up. I can usually talk myself out of it. However, maybe it would just be easier to let myself puke and be done with it. Food consumption doesn't help or hinder the situation. I feel the same after I eat as I did before I ate. I will say though, if I eat slowly, so far I haven't had to get sick immediately afterwards. I did learn from my last pregnancy if you feel like you are going puke, you probably are (IE: Arby's, and expensive Boston restaurant). I may nibble on crackers or drink some lemonade so the nausea settles down before I dive in. Ah, Lemonade. It's my best friend! We are getting along swimmingly.I do remember the Nurse Practitioner telling me before that sweetened water will usually stay down better than water itself. So I have been big on the lemonade, it definitely has helped. Which brings me to a new topic.

Caffeine. I already know that the stuff is nasty for a baby, and before I knew I was pregnant I was sucking the stuff down, I was loving the soda and the coffee drinks, which was a rarity anyways for me, because I usually don't drink them due to some past problems with some tachycardia. Well I was beginning to notice the tachycardia flaring up again. I was bummed, I slowed down after that. However, what pushed me over was this little episode; I had known I was pregnant for about 1 week, and one of the doctors brought coffee and muffins for the nurses! How awesome is that!!! So I filled my 8 ounce cup half way with coffee and diluted it a LOT with creamer and sugar, half cream/half coffee. Anyway I drank maybe half of it, and I could feel my heart start to pound in my chest, I started to feel woozy, and pukey. It was not good. I checked my heart rate--140. Bp was still fine as it almost always was with my tachycardia. So I threw out the coffee and chugged some water, while I sat in break room. Man, it took like 1/2 an hour before I felt somewhat better. After that I decided caffeine and me are not friends. Thus, lemonade and I struck up a happy friendship. Sometimes a soda sounds really good, but I know better. I have been drinking some decaf sodas, but I prefer water or lemonade. It's better for me and for baby.

I am tired though. Nighttime is when I usually get my most ambition to do SOMETHING, and I tucker out quickly. I have passed out every night. So exhausted. I even have gone to bed before Luke. How sad is that?

I have actually lost 2-3 lbs, due to nausea. I really am only supposed to gain 15 pounds the whole pregnancy anyways, due to my pre-pregnancy weight.

Okay, well I talked to my mom and she asked me a question, that threw me for a loop. So I decided I better explain some things. This might get a little TMI and I am sorry. So we are thoroughly blessed to be pregnant right now. Even though, I not so secretly craved to be pregnant, I knew that Ryan and I couldn't conceive, for up to 2 -4 year, if even at all. We had the sperm banked in Omaha, and planned to possibly use some this next year IF we were unable to get pregnant ourselves. We had been trying for some time, that is why you read my sad posts about not being pregnant. I had done a lot of praying and seeking God, and finally became comfortable with the fact that we might not ever get pregnant naturally. Well if you remember my ovarian cyst episode, at my last appointment the doctor told me my right ovary was about to ovulate and Baby dance time was NOW. And well... we baby danced. and, umm... got the job done! So, Ryan is effective at getting me pregnant again/still. So no sperm bank was needed. Praise God!

The reason we held off telling everyone was because we were waiting to tell my/his parents. It was their Christmas present. It was 2 pictures, one of Luke:

And this one:

With this card attached:

I made the card on Scrapblog. I love that website. you have to check it out sometime!!

We sure enjoyed seeing every ones response. My little Sister's was cute.

Me: "Guess what Brentney?"

Brentney: "What?"

Me: "You're going to me an aunt again."

Brentney: "How?"

Me: "I am going to have another baby."

Brentney: looking at my belly "You are? I hope it's a girl... or a
boy"

Me: "Me too!"

Brentney then pats my belly and cups her hands around her mouth and places
her hand on my belly and says "Hi baby, I hope you are a girl or a boy."

She then informs me that if it is a girl her name should be Rosie. ----I am
not so sure about that. Hee hee.

Speaking of boy/girl issue. Its a boy. I know it! I just have that feeling. If not, well that just great too. I just see it being in this order boy, boy, and girl. I don't mind either way. I am nervous about a girl. I sure it will be fine though! Man I love being pregnant! I am so excited. I did buy a girl toddler shirt. Ryan wasn't very happy about it though. Oh well!! It was pink with gray dots on it with a gray ribbon around the waist, and has a gray long sleeve shirt underneath with a little ruffle on the end of the sleeves of both the gray and the pink shirt. too cute, and it was on clearance for 5 bucks. Ryan doesn't want me to buy stuff for a baby girl or a boy, until we know what it is..... Grrr... That frustrates me, but I still get some things and just take the grumbling. I still have the little dress and sweater I got for when we were pregnant with Luke, I told him I would return it or give it as a present, I didn't have the heart to. Its so cute, and I just have to keep it Just in Case! I promise that it will be used, when? I don't know but it will be. Ryan said "what if none of your friends have a girl?...... uhhh.....? I am sure Someone will!!! Crazy boy! Anyways, I still plan on buying things that are on sale and just deal with some noise from my big guy. :)

Oh yeah. Monday is the big day!!!! I have my first appointment on Monday. So I most likely won't post from now until then, but you never know. This will probably take you until Monday to read. I was a little long winded, but you all deserve a longer post, in place of my absence, I kinda left my thoughts just hanging last post.